22, USA, actress/singer/marketing director/couch-dweller/shipper. But please, let's not be so formal... call me Robot. (Or Lucifer, since I'm playing him in Supernatural the Musical...)

This blog is pretty much an SPN feelings depot at this point, though Sherlock, Doctor Who, and other such nerderies will pop up. PLEASE talk to me about Blood Ties and Sanctuary.

The Ferret Series (I am so sorry).

Also I have fic recs now.

Also I maybe like Omegle a lot? My goal is to successfully troll as every angel.

Also I say things.

Also feelings.

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My Fic: Visiting Hours (Dean & Cas, Sam, Meg - 900 words) 

Summary: Dean can’t stay, Castiel can’t leave, and Sam’s left to fill out the insurance forms. Watching an angel break is one thing, but figuring out where to put the pieces is something else.

Crossposted at AO3 and Livejournal

[Cas, I am not Lucifer.  Calm the fuck down and just listen.  Come on, stop fighting, it’s me, Cas…]

Sam leaves Dean with a desperate, struggling Castiel and goes to find Meg, followed down the hall by Dean’s grunted assurances that he has it “under control, Sammy, just go.”  Half an hour later, Sam bursts through the door to find Castiel sitting on the bed and Dean crouched against the wall, staring at his hands.

“He just stopped, man,” Dean says without glancing up.  “He was Linda Blair one second and then just, I don’t know.  Gone.  He stopped struggling, said, ‘It’s fine.’ and sat down.  He hasn’t moved for…” He checks his watch. “Ten minutes.”

Sam turns from Dean to Castiel.  He tries to examine the angel from the doorway, though he has no idea what to signs to look for. Even offline like this, Cas doesn’t seem human.  He’s staring at nothing, but his gaze isn’t empty.  It’s like he can still read the universe in every dust mote that floats by his eyes – even if none of it registers.  Sam nods. “You think it’s gonna stick?” 

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The first chapter of my Season 8 AU is up. 

allypopx:

Crawling Through the Last Damnation

Summary: Dean and Castiel are in Purgatory. Sam has found himself alone once again, with an army of demons waiting outside. They all have their wars to fight if they want to find each other on the other side.

Pairings: Eventual romantic Destiel, aromantic Sam/Dean feels all over the place, Team Free Will feels.

Rating: T for now.

Warnings: Violence, angst

Other stuff: OFC, complacent with canon, WIP

FF.Net, AO3

Thank you to Emily for going through the emotional torture of being my beta.

guys i’m betaing this awesomeness - read read read…

what if 

Castiel comes back from Purgatory all righteous and badass and hardened

and doesn’t care about Meg and her thorny pain anymore

and

and

and

she actually kind of misses it

i bet 

azazel used to send the winchesters a happy mother’s day card

and now crowley does it

it’s on hell’s yearly calendar

I wonder where this leads…

EXCLUSIVE SUPERNATURAL SPOILERS 

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[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]

A collaboration with the brilliant max-t on a Dean and Cas version of “Somebody That I Used to Know” by Gotye and Kimbra, for the SPN Musical project (here).
Dean, guitar: max-t (soundcloud, tumblr)
Cas, harmonies, lyrics: sadrobotinabowlerhat (soundcloud, tumblr)

EDIT: Soundcloud has reached it’s download limit, so you can download here if you’d like!

Lyrics:

DEAN
Now and then I think of when you were in Heaven
And how you came down just to bring me back to life
For some reason you had set me free
But your hand was like a brand on me
It’s a joke to put an angel on my shoulder

We all get addicted to one kind of pain or other
Down there they showed me I’m the type who always gives in
So when I dream about the things I did
And when I think that you saw all of it
Is it surprising that I wish it all was over

BOTH
But you didn’t have to raise me up
Pretend that I am somehow righteous
and that I deserve it
Just put me right back in the ground
Because you treat me like an angel
when I’m not enough

No you didn’t have to fall so low
Sacrifice yourself, your everything
to be my brother
I swear that I’d be nothing, no,
if I’m not somebody you pulled from below
I am just somebody you pulled from below
I am just somebody you pulled from below 

CAS
Now and then I think of all the times you made me falter
And left me here bleeding from a battle that I could have won
But there’s nothing now that you could say
Are you listening my choice is made
I could never let you go
And I wouldn’t fall if you were just
somebody I pulled from below

BOTH
But you didn’t have to raise me up
Pretend that I am somehow righteous
and that I deserve it
Just put me right back in the ground
Because you treat me like an angel
when I’m not enough

No you didn’t have to fall so low
Sacrifice yourself, your everything
to be my brother
I swear that I’d be nothing, no,
if I’m not somebody you pulled from below…

Look for the cover of the original lyrics coming soon!

OH NO

BIBBING

NO WAIT WHO ARE YOU

WE WERE GONNA GET MARRIED

Today’s front page of TVGuide.com.

WELL DONE.

What do Winchesters do? 

They go to Hell for each other.

#castielisawinchester

Yes, okay, they left him but… (in dumb poem form) 

but they kind of have a lot of shit going on right now

and crowley is after cas

and maybe it’s better to hide the helpless angel

then drag him around the country in shitty car

and yeah they haven’t addressed everything yet

have you ever EVER seen dean address things directly

things that he didn’t know what to do about

like maybe hell for example

or his father’s death

so he is not going to talk about this

because that’s how he is

did you see how he was with cas outside the hospital

with the COAT

he’s not being an asshole

he’s fucking lost

cas did an amazing thing

and they are grasping at ways to make it ok

i thought it was beautiful and sad and i just can’t with this

also

it feels like people are complaining a lot

about the fact that dean is being hypocritical

yeah

he is

he’s a flawed person

a very flawed person

and so is cas

that doesn’t invalidate their relationship

or their value as characters

or the show’s validity

it leaves them room for growth

which we even saw in this episode

and one of my favorite things about this show

is how they aren’t afraid to make things messy

sam and dean have a legitimately disturbing relationship

but it’s also beautiful

same with dean and cas

okay done

-fin-

Once again… 

Omegle.

If anyone wants to join me by making “Supernatural” one of their interests, I’ll be around.

Pretending to be an angel at 2am.

#goodlifechoices

So I’m just sitting around

minding my business you know

watching X-Men: The Last Stand

when suddenly

DEATH.

HI DEATH ILU